When can I breathe again?

I cannot WAIT to be at goal weight. I can't wait to have the pressure of "must lose more pounds, must lose more pounds" running in my head.

I've been working pretty hard at it. I've been eating well since the day I returned from vacation.
16 days to be exact.
I've had ONE "bad" day. (But on that day I did go to the gym and burn 800 calories. And that day was Easter, so sue me.)

Other than Easter, I have cut 850 calories per day between diet and exercise.
850 X 15 = 12,750 calories.

The equivalent of 3-4 pounds.

Guess how much I weigh?

168.6.

That's right folks, I lost 0.4 lbs. this week. And I only had to make myself miserable!

You too can lose completely irrelevant amounts of weight and work your ass off! It's easy! Just follow my simple plan and you'll be on a path to less free time, more workouts, less delicious food, and more failure on the scale!

I. am. not. sad.

I. am. angry.
Frustrated.
Exhausted. 

AND...not even back to my weight of 167.4 before vacation. ALMOST A MONTH AGO.


This is why people give up.
Because it's so unfair, and so difficult.
It's not for the faint of heart.

People have been saying I look thin all week.

ASK ME IF I CARE. 

I don't think I'm being unreasonable. I'm 168 lbs. Not 120. I can stand to lose some more and I want to!


I'm just praying, please GOD, help me lose just a couple so I can get my motivation and positive attitude back!

Because I'm not going to quit. But I'm pretty resentful of my lifestyle and situation right now.
And when I'm motivated, I resent nothing. And I feel less tired.

And since I obviously have no control over this, maybe Jesus can help.



Because what I'm doing sure as hell ain't working.